MESS.........

Of late I have been feeling a little low. No reason in particular.... but nevertheless....

Given that my husband is coming home after almost an year, 10 months to be more precise and the fact that i have recently earned my Phd degree , i should be joyful and happy. in fact i am happy yet  i am  feeling low...

As I write .. a hint of the reason behind this ugly feeling is peeping from somewhere......

seems to me that I have spread myself too much over the last few months. i guess i have gotten involved in  a lot of affairs without considering how to wrap them up.... too many incomplete ends to meet.... and this state of being is driving me crazy. the truth is that i have been groomed to be sincere about everything i do.... where it be housekeeping or work or whatever it is.... and once undertaken,- there is no job, no relation that i can treat frivolously... so it bothers me immensely when i see that sincerity and honesty is slipping out of me just because i have undertaken too much and cannot handle it all together....  i hate it when i do not know the end of something i had started in a moment of impulse.....

That reminds me of what Dirac had once told Neils Bohr in his moment of confusion,

"I was taught at school never to start a sentence without knowing the end of it...."

Note to myself: In future remember what Dirac had said  before plunging head-on into odd commitments !

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